I'm feeling dragged down to the depths... Alan Henrique Marrara

I'm feeling dragged down to the depths of my consciousness. There’s too much confusion in my mind. I know I may have made a huge mistake, but I’m not a super human. You’ve chosen me with my imperfections, though you always believed I could do better than I myself could expect. You’ve accompanied all of the ongoing battles I’ve been having with myself. I’ve been feeling shattered into pieces without knowing the reasons why. When I look around I only see you have given me reasons to smile and it makes me sad. It’s like I’m trapped and lost into my own fears and insecurities. I’ve been nitpicking and maximizing things as well as I have the impression I’m attracting all of these things by the way I am shifting my mindset. I just don’t know what to do!