⁠Difficulties It's difficult to deal... Solivier

⁠Difficulties
It's difficult to deal with me, it's difficult to understand myself. Sometimes I'm happy and other times I can't even stand to hear my voice. Sometimes I think I'm dull and boring, other times I disagree with that. Sometimes I laugh for nothing, other times it hurts me soul having to smile at someone. Sometimes I'm not the least bit embarrassed, other times I can't say “hi” to a stranger. Sometimes I hate everyone, other times I think it was hasty to generalize. Sometimes I think I'm full of friends, other times I think I'm the loneliest person. Sometimes I think I hate it, other times I think I like it and both times, I almost always change my mind. Sometimes I think I'm stupid for having made a mistake, other times I think I'm smart for having learned with the mistake. Sometimes I feel needy, other times I don't want anyone to even hug me. Sometimes I can't sleep, other times I can't wake up or I didn't want to wake up. Sometimes I think it's come to an end, other times I think it's just begun. Sometimes I am insecure, other times I am a well of security and certainty. Sometimes I feel too much, other times I'm a stone of ice. Sometimes I find too many things, other times I think I don't find anything and I feel too confused to understand it. Sometimes I feel lost, other times I still feel that way. I hate to disappoint, but sometimes I don't even realize how much I can hurt someone with just my words."